So, this is my first time writing in my own blog? I'm not really sure on how to blogging anyway. But yeah, whatever, I will just write what I want to write. For me it's simply about the truth of the words we express out from our mind, our heart.
Okay, simple background about my life story, by this time I write this, it's been two months since I left my super lovely hometown, Medan, move to Aussie, exactly in Leura, Blue Mountains Hotel school. And since I was here alone without my families, my best friends, my second family, and everyone linked to me in medan, that is what motivates me more to start blogging in order to express out myself, even if there's no one will view this blog, just as long as I can pour out what's happening to me now, I guess it might help a bit.
About this school? It was my dream school before, as I knew that this hotel school is one of the most well-known in hospitality industry, also I can get my Bachelor degree in just 2,5 years including 1 year working experiences, and now after passing this 2 months, I just realised few things.
Firstly, I did lack of research about this school before, I know nothing further than what I mentioned above, I never imagine about how will it going to be to stay up in the mountains, I don't know bout the surrounding and environment here.
Secondly, I am too relax since I graduate my high school on April last year and unemployed for almost a year, then suddenly I have to face the reality of studying which honestly I never really do it in my life. Yeah I wonder too how can I survive high school, am I just lucky or I am good at guessing answer. Haah!! I don't know too, and I don't wish to think bout what has passed. Lol! However, since I am here now I have to face the reality that I am now back to study mode in my life story again. :D
And, lastly the thing that I realised most of my fault is why I never think of the risks and consequences of getting into this school that could got bachelor degree in only 2,5 years, while other colleges or uni need averagely above 3 years and more and without 1 year experiences.
Here's the answer, this school uses the program of theory terms, practical terms, and internship, and due to we got a year compulsory internship, actually our academic study time is only 1,5 year, but, even the academic divided into theory and practical, so as now I am in year 1 term 1, and currently in theory, and 1 term last for 3 months as usual, so basically I need to study the theories subjects which other people need to study for usually 6 months in only 3 months, and worse actually it's not exactly 3 months, it's less than that for whatever sake! Worse is I was graduated from only national high school where I never write essay, report, prepare presentation and even my high school doesn't use english as our main language, and suddenly I just jumped to this college and just in my first 2 months, I've got more than 10 assessments completed, it's truly insane for me, I never use to do any homework before, dude! And now what? I have to do 2000words of essay, I have to prepare my own presentation, I have to do interview, I have to study for quiz and so on, dude! Oh Gosh! Can you just imagine that a girl like me, who use to play around all the time, and never ever interested in academic thing, now have to face this all, oh man, frankly, it was so hard for me at the first time!
Yet, I am proud that at least I could still survive till now, and hopefully for my final exam next week as well. But you know what? I'm still standing straight and could face these all won't be apart of my best buddies that keep supporting me, I knew I moaned so much to them, I keep complaining that it's too tough for me, my english is bad too moreover, and I have to deal with all of these, it just ain't easy dude. But having those best buddies who could listen and understand me, and support me whether directly or indirectly, it's just make me strong again, and I obviously know that even how tough how hard is that, how much pressure that I feel, I still won't ever have a chance to give up, I have to fight all of these challenges, hit them down and walk through it, whatever my results, I just won't care too much as long as I don't fail any single subject and I promise myself that I can prove to my parents, my beloved mom and dad that I am one of their best daughter that now grown up as a professional lady, and I will always do the best to make you guys proud. Yeah, I did complains a lot to my friends, the food sucks, the timetable so messy, the geographic state here worse, it's not convenience, but I just can't say too much bout this when it comes to my mom n dad, I just can't hold to make them worry about me. I want to show them that I am 18 years old kiddo, but I understand how to deal with life out here, I learnt how to live my life on my own, without parents around.
Life here is totally different, buddy. I do miss my hometown, I miss my mom, dad, my only lil sist, my friends, my second family, my home. I used to drive myself anywhere before, I can do whatever I like, whatever I wish to in my own way, I can choose whatever foods I want to consume, I can go anywhere I want just to buy what I need to buy, everything's so easy back then. Now from the place I stay, just to go to the nearest convenience store, you've to walk at least 20 minutes with up&downhill road, and that is when you got enough time during your break time before you have another class, if not, you need to call a cab and pay about 10 bucks for a single trip, and if I need to buy stuffs that more complete, the nearest one is almost 1 hour walking, I got no car, I got no motorbike here, so my choices is just two, either cab or foot. But walking doesn't matter too much for me, however the limited time that I got does matter of course.
After all, I still enjoy my new life here anyway, although I feel homesick like crazy, at least I got new family again here, I got so many new friends here with many nationalities, hong kong, korea, taiwan, china, UK, US, germans, norway, Sweden, mexico, and some other else, and also my kind portuguese roommate. Although I got a problem that I can't really open and share everything to new people, because I feel uncomfortable and also they don't know a thing of my story before, I am still happy to know them, to make new friendship with them. And to close this post today, I would like to simply say thank you and express my appreciation to my best buddies that had supported me so much up to now, I really wish that you guys could always stand by my side and hopefully I could do the same for you guys. Distance and time zone might make us apart, but I wish that our friendship will never. Thanks to you my besties, Stefanie Alyono, who had patiently listen to all my moans, also for my 'mommy' Stella Yaparlin, for being the best understanding and caring figure of mom for me, for all of the feedbacks from you that mean so much to me, for my buddy Rosa, that often find time to have Skype with me with some of them and that really make me feel less lonely, and also for my funny innocent friend Novi who helped me to create this blog account, and also to everyone that has bring so much impact and supports into my life journey. You guys truly amazing and I won't be the exact me today without all of it.
What I learnt from all of these so far:
"No matter how hard this life try to beat you down, just remember to stand up and continue walking again, never lose faith and don't ever think of any give up words."
Once you made a decision, you stepped and walk outside, you got the chance to know what real life is, how cruel this life could be for those who's weak, nevertheless, for those who's strong enough, you'll know and enjoy the roller-coaster that life let you ride, and all you need to do is to keep your head up, be grateful of everything Buddha gave to us, walking straight forward and live up your life to the fullest!
You could just be the most you in this moment of life, if you never dare to face it, you won't ever get the meaning of being alive as well.
Guess that's all for my sharing session this time, hopefully I could practise to blog better next time and will update frequently.
Cheers!
